transition to fall

I'll go through these manic periods where I'll write a blog entry every day for a week, and then I'll go for a month without one. Anyway, I knew that after last night, things would start settling down. It's time for me to switch into school mode. Last night, a bunch of people brig knew from usc, afi, and high school went to Saddle Ranch for her goodbye party. It turned out to be a really fun night. I decided that I love adios motherfuckers. They are delicious. They came in basically a pitcher-sized glass and were bright blue. They had vodka, white rum, gin, and some other blue liquor and were sooooo good! You don't taste a bit of the alcohol, which is good because more and more I realize that I don't enjoy the tonic drinks. Because you don't taste the alcohol, it knocks you on your ass. Brigitte and I split 2 big pitchers of it. It always makes me nervous to blend people from too many friend groups, but this time everyone seemed to get along really well. Probably thanks to the qualities of the adios motherfuckers. Do you ever have certain events that happen though, even little ones, that you wish you could reverse time and change the outcome so much that you just obsess over the event for days afterwards? I don't know if that makes any sense. Basically, I looked like a total idiot in front of someone I really wish I hadn't and I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. Maybe it's because everything is up in the air.

Perhaps taking my mind off it will help because now it's time to think about school. I always feel like I'm a different person from semester to semester. It probably has a lot to do with the people I surround myself with. This is my last week before I go back for fall semester and I have a huge list of things to get done. It's pretty daunting. The first week back, I've got to live on someone's floor because my apartment's move-in day isnt until the 16th. I'll be homeless. It's going to be strange being back in that environment because I've spent so much time this summer hanging out with Brigitte and older film people, it's going to be strange to not have them around. But hopefully organizing my life and doing rush stuff 12 hours a day will help me snap back into the mindframe that I have to be in. I hope that everyone has a wonderful end to summer and I've enjoyed spending time with you all.

But at midnight on August 18th, this is where I'll be!