And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest

My posts have become rather infrequent over the past few weeks because I've just been pounded with work. It seems like that's all I've been doing since coming back from break. It makes the time go by pretty quickly though, and I'm really enjoying working like a real designer finally. I can't believe it's already February. Well, today's actually the last day of January and it's kind of bittersweet for me each year. I had an ok day. Tons of running around, spraymounting pictures onto boards for a presentation, working on an essay about Frankenstein and watching the Tuesday night lineup, but no matter how busy I was today, the main thought in my mind was that it was January 31st and today my sister would've been 22. It's so strange to think about. I look at my friends with sisters and how they're like best friends that can't be taken away by moving or going to different schools or silly fights. They are there for life. I think that may be the most cruel thing in my life, I was robbed of that person who I'm sure would've been there for me through everything. And that she was robbed of a full life. It's so totally random and unfair. I talked to my mom today on the phone and like every year, she bought a bouquet of colorful flowers and put them by Andrea's picture. She sounded kind of depressed today and I didn't know what to say to her that would be at all helpful. What extraordinary people my parents are to have gone through losing a child and come out of it ok and have been there for matt and me with the same love and support just as if nothing had happened. But you can't live in the past, especially after 22 years, and I'm really grateful for the way my life has turned out.

The rest of the week is going to be spent in the printmaking studio because I have a big presentation coming up and am not at all prepared. I also have a sorority dance coming up on the 10th that i really need to find a date for. I went with some adpi girls to the Norton Simon Museum this weekend and spent the day looking at Degas and then went to get 21 choices. I've always really liked old town pasadena. I'm finally starting to get over that cold that I've had for a week and a half. Anyway, I'll update more friday because I have too much work to do tonight. It has the makings of an all-nighter.