Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans

I've been really attracted to these all-black webpages lately which for a graphic designer is probably not a good thing. They look very sleek and elegant though, dont they? I suppose I should be more creative. I still don't know html as well as I'd like, but once I do, I'll change the header colors and maybe the font color. Does anybody know how to do that? Kris? Dreamweaver has spoiled me and saved me the effort of learning html for myself.

Tomorrow is my last day of oceanography and amidst studying for my final, I'm in the process of packing everything back up into bins to move to Valencia for about a week. Maybe it's because of this physical upheaval and maybe not, but the last few days I've had a growing feeling of anxiety. I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin. I have a to-do list about a mile long and it seems like nothing is being crossed off and time is going too fast and not fast enough at the same time. I feel like I've been frittering. I forgot to wish 3 friends happy birthday this month until a few days after the fact. There are about a million changes I'd like to make to the ADPi website before rush, but it's only two weeks away so I can't possibly get it all done and I'm feeling kind of guilty about that. Lots of people look at it and they get a judgement of it and if it's not good then it's my fault but I don't have time to fix it. I'm letting down everyone in the house if it's not perfect. I can't compete with the other houses who hired professional designers and it's putting extra pressure on me. And in the meantime, I'm focusing so much of my efforts on this project that any other projects have pretty much been put on hold which makes me feel worse. My week in Valencia will be spent seeing friends who are there, working on graphic design for adpi and for my own art webpage, and sorting through the 20 or so boxes that are piled high in our family's living room trying to consolidate the things I'm bringing for fall term into about 5 boxes. Simplicity seems like the way to go. I think this week off will be good for me.

I think my family senses that I'm about to lose it and have a mental breakdown because on Monday my dad came out to USC and took me to dinner in Santa Monica because he thought I was having a "bad day" and today my mom came out and we went to lunch at this little cafe I never knew existed on 29th street. As much as I'd like to crawl under my covers and not come out until Spring, fall semester is inevitably approaching. But with it comes friends, football games, dinners, cooler weather, and new experiences. I think the skin crawling thing will stop soon.