When the moon is in the seventh house...

My birthday is on February 13 and I will be turning 20. Strange to think about. When I was a little kid I never pictured myself at age 20 or beyond that. I don't know what I thought would happen at this point. Maybe Id magically disappear into a cloud of smoke or perhaps I would just stay 10 years old forever. But here it is...just two months away. Anyway, I got this invitation from the facebook to join the "Aquarians rule" group. I don't put much faith in astrology just like I don't put much faith into much of anything besides tangible reason and tested science, but it's interesting to see just how much I fit in with the typical definition always given to an Aquarius' personality. Not to say that it by any means predicts my future, but by coincidence many of my traits are also described in the Aquarius mold. For example, here is the big description of Aquarians from the face book thing.

"Aquarius is the eleventh Sign of the Zodiac, and Aquarians are the perfect representatives for the Age of Aquarius. Those born under this Sign have the social conscience needed to carry us into the new millennium. They are extremely tuned in to creative energy. These folks are humanitarian, philanthropic and keenly interested in making the world a better place. Along those lines, they'd like to make the world work better, which is why they focus much of their energy on our social institutions and how they work (or don't work). Aquarians are visionaries, progressive souls who love to spend time alone thinking about how things can be better. They are also quick to engage others in this process, which is why they have so many friends and acquaintances. Making the world a better place is a collaborative effort for Aquarians."

Traditional Aquarian Traits:
Friendly and humanitarian
Honest and loyal
Original and inventive
Independent and intellectual

On the dark side....
Intractable and contrary
Perverse and unpredictable
Unemotional and detached

Interesting, huh? These are good and bad. I think about all this now because lately some things havent worked out like I wanted in terms of relationships while a bunch of people I know are falling into really good relationships and it just seemed like time to reassess why. I enjoy the fact that social issues mean as much to me as they do...i guess I'm just one of those idealistic people, but I still cling to the idea that things can change. Vegetarianism is extremely important to me (not for everyone, but just a goal for myself) as is human rights around the world and the environment, the typical liberal eh? The downside is that my interest in these things is not something that is of interest to about 80% of the guys I meet here. Business and finance bore me to death and I can't connect on the same level with those people. I often hear that Aquarians are more artistic and funky than most people, which definitely suits my personality, but I'm not so sure I'm happy about this. Yes, being artisitic is wonderful. I'm an art major and like the idea that one day I might be able to put out some cool artwork into the world. But on the downside, this type of thing often alienates me from the population of USC. I am a little offbeat and don't act like most of the girls around here whose topics focus on shopping, fashion, and flirting. I lose out a lot of times because I don't get into the whole flirting thing which other girls too. Apparently it works. I expected this sort of thing in high school, but Im starting to wonder if the roles ever change or expand because at this point in life I know I'm never gonna fit in with that.

In addition, another Aquarius trait I seem to possess is the tendency to be unemotional, independent, and detached. Anyone who knows me...this is very true. I can have all the passion for art and humanitarianism possible, but when it comes to personal relationships there's a box and I'm starting to wonder if that's ever going to change. I get bored very easily in relationships. I'm extremely low maintenance, but I might be too low maintenance in that I like extremely independant relationships. I get smothered if someone calls too much, those couples that spend every waking second with each other kind of piss me off. I guess that can actually be seen as a plus, but i feel like it's restrictive to closeness. Sigh, so there you have it. The typical Aquarian. So what does this mean? Am I cosmically restricted to these traits for all eternity or is there the possibility to assess and make better? Now that I notice these, I think I can actively work to minimize all the bad stuff and pump up the good.