She warned him not to be deceived by appearances, for beauty is found within

I've been having the feeling of displacement the last few days and I'm not sure why. I think perhaps it's just time for a break from here and some time to spend with family and friends at home. I can't wait to see my high school friends over winter break. I dunno, lately I feel that I have been heading in a direction I don't want to go in. This is not who I want to be in the long run. We had homecoming yesterday and it was so-so. The game turned out to suck a bit because by the time we got there, there weren't any seats left with our group or anywhere for that matter so we were standing by the aisle but the security guard was yelling at us to move so we couldnt even pay attention to the game. Also, was taking care of several drunk people at the same time and it was a little bit more than I wanted to handle. A few girls and I ended up leaving, going back to the house and ordering pizza. It turned out that it was much more fun to watch the game from the warmth and coziness of the den. Afterwards, we wanted to go out b/c we figured there would be things going on, but it was a pretty dead night. Ended up hanging out at the delt house for a bit and then going home. Fred was at the Delt house though! He is a funny french asian alumni who graduated last year, majored in business, and is now making six figured working in NYC. Crazy. I saw alumni Andrew and John at the game too way up in the stands, but was too laden with drunk people to go say hi. I think I need to branch out more. It's nice to have good friends there, but I need to know people from other houses, or just stop going out so much in general. Perhaps time for me to meet a guy who I know wants to hang out with me outside all that. Heather made a good point last night when she said with this system, you never know if your friends there really want to be around you, because you as the girl came to them and they may just be being nice. I tend to think everyone is just being nice. Only one way to tell I guess. In fact, I'm pretty burned out on going out at all. Maybe that'll be the end of it for the semester.

Went to see Alfie on Friday night with some ADPi girls. It was the first movie I've been out to see in about a month and a half. I got movie theater popcorn. It's a shame too because I didn't think it was a very good movie, and there are so many I'm waiting to see including I heart Huckabees, Bridget Jones' Diary, and the Polar Express.

My second sorority invite kinda crept up on me. It's this friday already! I'm wrestling with whether to go or not. The thing is, I don't have a date but there's no one I really know who I'd necessarily wanna bring. Well, there is of course, but that can never happen. My first invite was a lot of fun. It was a semi formal, we all went to dinner and danced and I had a great time. Well, i dunno if andy did, but I had a lot of fun. This invite I'm less jazzed about for some reason. I wouldn't want to be set up, b/c the possibility for a disastrous and painful evening is about 50/50 and I don't wanna risk it. I want to bring someone who likes to dance and who likes to have fun because it's a themed invite so he'd have to dress up. But really, I'm thinking it might all be too much of a hassle. I hate asking people, perhaps thats one of the reason I never went to the dances in high school. So maybe I will go down to pitzer that night to see Tasha's show or maybe I will sit home with a book and die fat and alone and be found dead 3 weeks later, half eaten by wild dogs. Anyway, we'll see how the week goes, but I'm not really expecting anything to come of it. Hopefully I'll be in a better mood though.