The second star to the right shines in the night for you

I was laying in bed last night and before I fell asleep I heard the train whistling in the distance. I love that kind of thing. My favorite place I've lived is this little costal town called Half Moon Bay. It's located up in Northern California. Unfortunately I only got to live there from age 4-6, but it was definitely a cool place to be. Anyways, my house was about 2 or 3 blocks away from the ocean, you could walk to it. At night it would get really foggy so the ships that would come in to shore would be guided by this fog horn that you could hear from my bedroom and I'd fall asleep to it howling in the distance. If all goes as planned, Id like to live in a place like that again one day.

I got the Steinmart job! yay! After about a month of applying and not having much luck, I'm finally gonna be working. I don't really want to work, Id much rather spend the summer reading, working on art, redecorating my room (which is taking forever by the way) and hanging out with friends as much as possible, but I definitely need to work and save up money for next year. I think this will be a good job though. It's indoors which is much cooler than working at Magic Mountain in the million degree heat. They also close at 9 so I won't be put in the position of working late hours. Plus, I usually only see my friends at night anyways. Hopefully I'll be able to learn how to work the cash register which will come in handy for any other job I get. My mom and I are going shopping today for a few nice work outfits and comfortable shoes. I start training tomorrow, I'm a tad bit nervous but I think it'll be ok.

My family, Jessica, and I went to Disneyland yesterday which was so great, but I ended up eating far too much food. They have the soup & breadbowl in New Orleans Square, which is my favorite place to eat. I've suprisingly lost a few pounds since being home, but I always get much more weight conscious when Im home as opposed to being at school. I never really figured out why, but I think I've pinpointed part of it. My family members aren't the healthiest eaters. Lots of carbs, lots of butter and fat and cholesterol. I have a feeling that comes from the traditional Russian background and cooking style that my relatives grew up in. I overanaylze. I see what my family eats and it started to freak me out after a while. Of course, choosing to be a vegetarian was more about animal rights than anything but I think a fraction of my vegetarianism stemmed from that idea too. So instead of just trying to eat healty foods, I'd go overboard and restrict even more as a sort of reaction, or to try to balance out the diets of the rest of my family (not just my immediate family). I wanted everyone to eat healthier for their own sakes, but since I couldn't bring it up in conversation (i mean how could you? Hey, you are eating shit, stop it? Nah), I would start to think that I would just restrict myself and it'd work out for everyone or make me feel better. It's just a theory, but it explains why I get even crazier when I'm at home all the time. Sometimes people ask me about it and this is just some small part of what goes through my head, but that was me from a few years ago so I really feel that I'm at a point of control where I can look back and reflect on it.

When we were at Disneyland, they have this thing where you get quizzed and find out which disney character youre most like. I decided to see which boy character I am, and turns out I'm most like Aladdin. Matt was Mushu. Jessica was Ariel.

My room decoration has pretty much come to a halt, I have 3 walls painted and Im starting on the brick wall and wrought iron painting. I still have an incredible amount to do including the flooring, lighting, and the small touches that'll make it come together. With luck, itll be done before I head back to school in August!