Tuesday, June 29, 2004

And I, Jack, the Pumpkin King have grown so tired of the same old thing

Hi everyone, I know it's been 11 days, which is an incredibly long time for me not to update. I think I've been so run into the ground lately with work, that there is very little time for me to do anything else. I basically live at Steinmart. And when I'm not there I know it will only be a few hours til Im there again. And when I'm asleep, I dream about working at a cash register. Which I guess is fine. I mean, I signed up for it and knew what I was getting into and I am making money which is nice and I'm trying to keep up a good attitude, especially with so many people out there looking for jobs. It seems though that many of my friends are more suited to handle the schedule of constant working much better than I am. I've been averaging about 40-45 hours each week. Since I don't have the endless supply of hours in which to do all the stuff I want to do, I've been burning the candle at both ends in order to make sure I hang out with my friends, participate in cool summer activities/events, and spend time with my family. Since so many of my friends live far away during the year for college, time with them has been really important to me so Ive made it a point to go out after work and on my days off. A week ago I got to go dancing for the second time this summer. We met up with the Pasadena group and went back to that club in Anaheim. Got terribly lost along the way and it was funny to see Wiley get really pissed off, but we made it there and had a great time. That is...until someone in the club (no one i knew) got stabbed and we made a quick exit to avoid getting involved. I never thought in a million years that Id be part of a crowd that went to clubs. But then again, I guess it's just another weird paradox to my personality and finding out more about myself. Artistic reclusive oddball socialite who likes to dance? haha, i doubt it.

One day after work I met up with Tasha, Cait, and Brigitte to check out the weekly jazz concert going on near the Hyatt, and when we stopped in Borders there was this guy playing acoustic by himself. He was good and rather cute in a tossled, "i just rolled out of bed, picked up my guitar, and showed up here so I guess I'll play" look to him. We stayed after to talk to him, and he told us that he was playing at the Hotel Cafe the next night in Hollywood. I wondered if I could seduce a guy like that, even though he was like 27 or 28. haha. We wrangled up a kinda large group to go see him at the Hotel Cafe the next night and I was pleasantly surprised by the venue. It was this tiny hole in the wall place, the kind you might pass up without noticing it even existed. The vibe was definitely 20's art/emo scene and I felt a little young and out of place, but it was exciting none the less. The bands were fun and we even got a shoutout from the Borders guy. He called us the "usc girls". THe club was packed with 20 year old, gorgeous guys which provided me with the chance to ridiculously stare at all of them.

It was my parents' 23 anniversary yesterday and, very much needing a break and some relaxation, we headed up to Lake Arrowhead for the day to get in some reading. There's a little coffee shop overlooking the lake that we like to go sit in when we are up there. I sat, read Harry Potter (which I fear I will never finish), and stared at the lake where people were water skiing and riding in boats. I saw the fattest chipmunks I have ever seen just sitting on some rocks near the lake. I fear it would have tried to eat me if it had gotten the chance. There was hardly anyone in the shopping center or in the bookshop/cafe, so we enjoyed a secluded day up in the mountains. It was just what I needed. I bought a new cell phone, determined to break out of my phone-phobic persona and force myself to use the phone more. The AT&T guy informed me that I had used my phone a grand total of 2 minutes last month which is embarassing, so I got this pretty new phone to tempt me to use it. And I have! I think Ive talked more than the 2 minutes I did last month which is a start.

So many people I know are leaving this week!! Jess went to Las Vegas thankfully only for the week, my brother went to Hawaii as part of an elaborate graduation trip, Adrianne's going to Hungary soon, Brigitte and Wiley both went to England and I fear that I won't have much contact with either until August! Luckily, I still have friends here to entertain me and Im looking forward to the summer picking up a bit in July. Monica, I promise to send a letter soon. Alright, Ive written far too much for this entry and I'll try to update tomorrow or sometime soon.

Friday, June 18, 2004

Whoa no touchy! No touchy! No touch

This is my first chance to sit down and update since I started working at Steinmart. The first few days were hellish. I didn't know anyone I was working with, my feet hurt, i didn't get time to spend with friends at all, and I kept hitting the wrong buttons on the register that sent off a chain reaction of horrible beeping signals. As I work more and more though, I think that I'm getting used to the routine and I'm not screwing up as much as I was. The people at work are becoming friendly and not so much ominous people to yell at me. I have a feeling that by next week I'll be into the groove of things, and be really happy that I'm earning a paycheck. Especially when I remember that it'll go to good use next year. Plus, some people I know have much worse jobs and worse hours, so I can't complain much. I wanted this, remember Sarah? Uh huh...

Other than work, my life's not been that exciting. I went to UCLA last Wednesday to pick up Connor and then we all went to Amoeba where I bought a Jimi Hendrix and John Lennon...staples of any collection but that I for some reason didn't have. Also picked up that Zero 7 record that I had wanted. The highlight of my day was when I saw Kris Roe (lead singer from the ataris) standing a few feet away from me shopping. I stared at him for a bit, considered whether to confess my love for his band's techie and ask for the phone number so that we could get married and have lots of sex and babies, decided it was rude to say anything as he probably gets hassled a lot and I am not cool enough to speak to him in Amoeba, and then he walked away. But it was a fun trip overall. I have to work a big sale this weekend, but I have off on Monday, so hopefully something amazing and exciting will happen

Reminders to people: (Cuz Im too lazy to pick up a phone) Caitlyn, if you could make me the Kinks and Velvet Underground cds that would be excellent. I'm feeling that "Who Loves the Sun" song. Jessica, I miss you, lets hang out!

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

The crappiness of work has drained me this week. I don't like having to work 5 days a week and my legs are killing, but I think that the money will be worth it eventually. More about my job later.

But lots has happened this week that's made me smile...so it's all worth it. tee hee hee.

Saturday, June 12, 2004

The second star to the right shines in the night for you

I was laying in bed last night and before I fell asleep I heard the train whistling in the distance. I love that kind of thing. My favorite place I've lived is this little costal town called Half Moon Bay. It's located up in Northern California. Unfortunately I only got to live there from age 4-6, but it was definitely a cool place to be. Anyways, my house was about 2 or 3 blocks away from the ocean, you could walk to it. At night it would get really foggy so the ships that would come in to shore would be guided by this fog horn that you could hear from my bedroom and I'd fall asleep to it howling in the distance. If all goes as planned, Id like to live in a place like that again one day.

I got the Steinmart job! yay! After about a month of applying and not having much luck, I'm finally gonna be working. I don't really want to work, Id much rather spend the summer reading, working on art, redecorating my room (which is taking forever by the way) and hanging out with friends as much as possible, but I definitely need to work and save up money for next year. I think this will be a good job though. It's indoors which is much cooler than working at Magic Mountain in the million degree heat. They also close at 9 so I won't be put in the position of working late hours. Plus, I usually only see my friends at night anyways. Hopefully I'll be able to learn how to work the cash register which will come in handy for any other job I get. My mom and I are going shopping today for a few nice work outfits and comfortable shoes. I start training tomorrow, I'm a tad bit nervous but I think it'll be ok.

My family, Jessica, and I went to Disneyland yesterday which was so great, but I ended up eating far too much food. They have the soup & breadbowl in New Orleans Square, which is my favorite place to eat. I've suprisingly lost a few pounds since being home, but I always get much more weight conscious when Im home as opposed to being at school. I never really figured out why, but I think I've pinpointed part of it. My family members aren't the healthiest eaters. Lots of carbs, lots of butter and fat and cholesterol. I have a feeling that comes from the traditional Russian background and cooking style that my relatives grew up in. I overanaylze. I see what my family eats and it started to freak me out after a while. Of course, choosing to be a vegetarian was more about animal rights than anything but I think a fraction of my vegetarianism stemmed from that idea too. So instead of just trying to eat healty foods, I'd go overboard and restrict even more as a sort of reaction, or to try to balance out the diets of the rest of my family (not just my immediate family). I wanted everyone to eat healthier for their own sakes, but since I couldn't bring it up in conversation (i mean how could you? Hey, you are eating shit, stop it? Nah), I would start to think that I would just restrict myself and it'd work out for everyone or make me feel better. It's just a theory, but it explains why I get even crazier when I'm at home all the time. Sometimes people ask me about it and this is just some small part of what goes through my head, but that was me from a few years ago so I really feel that I'm at a point of control where I can look back and reflect on it.

When we were at Disneyland, they have this thing where you get quizzed and find out which disney character youre most like. I decided to see which boy character I am, and turns out I'm most like Aladdin. Matt was Mushu. Jessica was Ariel.

My room decoration has pretty much come to a halt, I have 3 walls painted and Im starting on the brick wall and wrought iron painting. I still have an incredible amount to do including the flooring, lighting, and the small touches that'll make it come together. With luck, itll be done before I head back to school in August!

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Sail with the wildest crew that ever sacked the Spanish Main

Searching for a job is a horrible, but I have a feeling my job search is coming to an end. I must have applied at 15 places at least. Right when I got sullen and about to give up, Steinmart called for an interview. It went well, and they called me back for a second interview and said they just needed to figure out where in the store to place me, and so Im guessing I got the job. I had to call with a few references this evening, so I should hear for sure in a few days. It's so complicated...multiple interviews, references, possibly even drug tests. I hope i get it. I don't really want a job, stick it to the man, but if I rush next year it's incredibly expensive so it's probably a good idea to start saving up for that now! At least this job is indoors with the air conditioning, as opposed to magic mountain where youre working in the 100 degree heat everyday.

My Interactive Animation for the Web class was cancelled due to not enough people registering for it. I was really looking forward to the class. Oh well, looks like I'll have to add Flash to the list of programs to learn by myself.

Should I go see the Ataris and 311 in concert in santa barbara? I really want to go, but the downside is the ticket is $40.

I enjoyed dancing so much the other night, I want to go again. I wore myself ragged with all the late nights recently so I went to bed super early to make up for it, but it just made me more sleepy.

Monday, June 07, 2004

And from this slumber you shall wake when true love's kiss the spell shall break

I fear that I've become nocturnal. The last 3 days in a row have all been incredibly late nights, which wouldnt be bad except that I have a hard time sleeping in too late in the morning. I feel guilty and like I'm missing whatever is going on that day, so sleeping past a certain point is pretty much impossible. Even if I know in the back of my mind that all Im gonna do when I get up is lounge around the house in pajamas and watch tv, I still feel guilty that Im missing it. But the last few days have certainly been worth it...despite those pesky racoon circles that developed under my eyes.

On Friday, Tasha and I drove down to Pasadena and met up with Wiley and a large group of people I didn't really know, but who were surprisingly cool once I started talking to them. We hung out at Wiley's for a bit and then packed into two cars and drove down to a club in Anaheim. If I had my choice we wouldnt be going all the way to anaheim, but it was good we did because the club was very crowded and they played good dancing music. When we got there, we danced with our boys for a bit then split off for a little. There were tons of sketchy guys there, several of whom would grab you by the waist or by the arm and try to make you dance with them. At one point Tasha and I were dancing with a group of boys who were getting far too "friendly" so we ran away to find our guys. It was Sean and Jonah's first time to a club, but by the end of the night they looked like they were having a great time. I love dancing...more so if I know the person, but no matter!! I had been wanting to go dancing for a month, so I was glad it finally happened.

We left the club around 2, the girls we were with went home and Tasha, Wiley, Sean, Jonah and I grabbed some Jack in Box and sat on Wiley's porch until 4. I went to bed at 5 am. SO TIRED.

Our friend Vincent went to Peru last night for the entire summer, so on Saturday Tasha, cait and I went back to Pasadena to say goodbye, but he didnt even show up! We ended up hanging out with people we didnt know who were being a bit crazy, but only stayed till 12 so it was cool.

Then last night Wiley and Jonah decided to drive down and visit us in SCV. I suppose to see what good girls in the suburbs do on a regular basis. They didnt get here until 12! I stayed until 3:30 am cuz I had a job interview this morning and didn't want to be a walking zombie. I wouldve hung out all night. Wiley gives the best hugs ever by the way. hehe. So now Im about to fall asleep in the middle of the daytime, but luckily I think things will calm down for the upcoming week. Hopefully filled with movies, lounging, and a disneyland trip on friday with jess and my family.

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

Pittsburgh

It's going to be an incredibly long update, seeing as I've been in Pennsylvania for the past 5 days...squeezing in tourist and family time and would like to recount all of it.

Unfortunately, had to take a plane to Pittsburgh, but at least this time it was a continuous flight rather than when I went last year and had to switch planes 3 times. I don't enjoy flying at all. I'm in a state of nervousness the entire flight, with takeoffs, landings, and turbulence causing my panic level to rise. Being squashed next to random people who talk your ear off and having nowhere to run is a bit of a downside too, but overall the flight wasn't horrible and we arrived in Pittsburgh at night feeling as good as could be expected from a day of travel. Driving from the airport into the city made me realize how much i hate the desert atmosphere we live in. In Pennsylvania, and all around the east coast area, there's thick, lush trees and everywhere you look is green. Coming back to the Santa Clarita Valley with its burnt trees and dry brush was severly depressing. Pittsburgh is a very old city, famous for its work during the Industrial Revolution, so the city is a little delapidated, but has a very unique feel. Almost all the buildings are dark brick and you can tell theyve been there for many decades.

The next morning, all the relatives wanted to meet at the ungodly hour of 8 am (which is 5 am California time) for breakfast, but the thought of seeing them all again was well worth waking up at that time. The whole family turned up and this was the first time ever that all of my family and all of the PA family has been together at the same time. My grandpa who just turned 75 and is still as articulate and personable as ever, my two pairs of aunts and uncles, and my 4 cousins met up for breakfast. I was a little nervous about seeing them, fearing that they were upset with me for choosing USC over Carnegie Mellon (two of my relatives teach there and my other uncle is the provost). I was worried they felt insulted, but they seemed genuinely interested in how my freshmen year went and didn't make any comments about me choosing USC over Carnegie Mellon.

The thing that excited me most about this visit is being able to spend a few days bonding with my little cousins. My CA family is pretty isolated out here, with my whole family on the east coast, I felt a bit jealous that all the cousins got to live around each other and interact all the time. Here in CA it's just me and my brother which is fine, but I can't help feeling bad that they are growing up without knowing us. #1 reason I regret not choosing Carnegie Mellon: If I had, I wouldve been able to be around them a lot more. Stupid me. Anyways, all 4 cousins are adopted which is pretty awesome, 2 from the US, one from Russia, and one from Romania. Gilly is 15, Ally is 11, Rebecca is 10, and Zachary is 7. I'm going to post some pictures with them in this entry. Anyways, the first day we took the kids minus Gillian to the Science Center and took a tour of a World War II submarine. It was really cramped down there and I'd never be able to make it on a 90 day submarine tour. Then we went to my uncle mark's club for a special birthday dinner for my grandpa. He has a blood clot so he can never travel on an airplane, so whenever we get the chance for a visit, it's really important.

The next day I went to see my cousin Rebecca play soccer. The humidity in Pittsburgh is incredible. It was 72 degress but felt like 90. Rebecca is such a little tomboy, she was running circles around all the other kids. She also plays in a coed baseball team and was trying out for a travel soccer team this week. We met up with the others to see Shrek 2, the animation was amazing and I really enjoyed it. Dinner at my aunt and Uncle's house resulted in games of Life and playing around on skateboards outside. Good thing these were little kids and not expert skateboarders because I definitely fell off a few times and looked silly.

We spent Monday on a boat trip down the river, touring the city's buildings, landscape, and football stadium from the water. We hit a storm where everyone went under the deck to the inside part of the boat to keep dry except for my mom, my brother and I who felt like sticking it out. We got drenched!! Matt started dancing in the rain to the Good Ship Lollipop song, and the captain stuck his head out of a doorway and stared at Matt like he was crazy. Everyone else thought we were crazy too when we showed up soaking wet and asked if we had never seen rain before. On Tuesday we went to check out the Frank Lloyd Wright house "Falling Water" which utilizes natural architecture to create harmony amongst the surrounding area, and is built over a water fall. The rest of the trip was spent at meals with the relatives, and my aunt said that Matt and I were welcome to come back anytime we wanted. We all made plans to meet up in Napa Valley in two years, which Im excited about...especially because we wouldnt need to take a plane to get there.

Pictures!

Here are those pictures from Matt's tattoo I said that I would put online.



This one is my brother Matt on the right and the tattooist, Jason, on the left. He was so cute. Check out the crazy tattoo on his neck!



In the middle of the tattoo. Of course, you don't get the sense of the loud buzzing sound of the needle from the picture.



Before the tattoo started, they place a carbon transfer of the tattoo's outline onto the skin. It washes off after a day or so, but helps the artist see exactly where things are supposed to be so he can just sort of trace it.



I just got back from Pennsylvania last night, and soon will be writing a long entry about all the stuff we did out there. Check back soon...