The other day I went to see "Secret Window", the new Johnny Depp thriller. I didn't really have many expectations for the film, just that by having Johnny Depp in it I was sure to like it. Really, I think that he could be in a movie where all he did was stand on screen staring at the audience, doing nothing, and not even talk for the two and a half hours...and I'd still pay to go see it. When Pirates of the Carribbean was first coming out in theaters, they did a premiere at Disneyland and my family just happened to go to the park the same day. They told us that many of the rides were going to shut down at a certain time to prepare for the premiere, but if we were already in the park we had the option of waiting by the red carpet for the next 3 hours and then watch the actors from the movie come into the park, get interviewed, etc. Being the incredibly stupid girl that I am, I was like "Psh! I want to go on rides, I dont want to wait around and watch these people walk down the red carpet." So we left. I can't believe I did that though because since then I have learned to love him and that movie...such a shame. Haha, i'm sure that if I had stayed, he would've stopped to talk to me and fall head over heels and leave his beautiful french wife for me. hahahaha. yes. Why is it that it's not that strange to like gorgeous actors who are 20 years older than us like johnny and brad pitt, but at the same time liking someone in real life with the same age difference would be considered rather odd?

I've spent the last few days in a state of utter relaxation and bliss. Yesterday Brigitte and I were bored so we decided to take a drive down the 126 towards Fillmore to the fruit stands that line the freeway. I got some dried apricots and cashews, but i went mainly for the drive down the open freeway, sipping on a raspberry smoothie, and listening to The Beach Boys. I left my driver's licence at school so I'm not able to just take off in my car, but if I get desperate enough I might go back to USC early just to grab my licence. My car has been handed down to my brother because Im never around, and come to think of it I don't even think I've driven since winter break. Having my own car never really seemed that important. We've had beautiful weather the entire break so far, very warm and reminiscent of summer. Usually I hate summer time and love the winter weather (being able to dress in comfy layers and because of all the layers being able to eat a ton and not care because you are so bundled up that no one notices. Not that anyone cares anyway, I tell myself). I can't help but feel rejuvenated though with the blue skies. It almost makes me want to go to the beach...although I've been wrestling with the idea of wearing a bathing suit. I dont really think that's gonna happen and it drives me crazy to think I might never just be ok with my body. It's very very inhibiting, but there's not much that can be done. I'm going to be the girl that, while everyone is wearing skimpy bathing suits, goes to the beach decked out with full length jeans and a tshirt. But perhaps it is better that way.

I MUST work this summer. Ideally, the Disney store would be the perfect place for a summer job for me because it's indoors so I wouldnt be baking or passing out in the inevitable 105 degree heat and also I already know a lot about disney stuff. I'm going to apply for as many jobs as I can find though. I feel like such a slacker that I didn't get a job for this school year and I think it'll be nice to have that money for next year. The idea of an internship is incredibly tempting, but I think it's even more important that Im able to pay for housing next year. I've been researching housing that is not owned by USC, and there seems to be some pretty fair deals on apartments that are reasonably priced one bedrooms that I might apply for. Ok, off to work on my drawing midterm project so that I don't have to do it after I get my wisdom teeth out and am drugged up on vicadin.